I'm currently in the car for the next 6 hours. Were driving clear across the great state of Tennessee to a little town called Luttrell. Home of Kenny Chesney. Gag me with a spoon, No let's make it a fork so its more painfull.Hopefully after well have time to go to the aquarium. I'll put up with the whole thing just to see the penguins!

So its 1 am and im really tired, but i can't sleep, I layed there for a hour and just looked at the fan going round and round. 

Well i finally got to talk to my love today, not once, twice or even 3 times i think it was 4! We talked for like 4 hours, weve been married for almost 2 years and thats weird but, when you dont get to talk for 2 weeks you have a lot to say. So maybe im still pumped over being able to hear his voice i have no idea. He also got to see me and Brendan on webcam, and he commented 4 times on how sexy i looked ( i just came home from the gym and was still all sweaty) but it was nice to hear that. 

I'm watching the first 48, I love this show and I have no idea why but its pretty cool. 

On another note my bff lacey is coming thursday and were going to chattanooga to the aquirum, ya 4 hours in the car to spend a couple hours having fun, this should be interesting! Anyways maybe ill try to go back to bed, cause brendan is gonna be up soon. BLAH

 You got to be fucking kidding me!!! I just wrote a whole fucking slew of words only for them to be deleted.  here is my 2nd try if this shit happens again fuck it. 

Its mothers day whoo hoo, can you read my enthuasium? Probally cause there isnt any. 
Its 11am and ive cleaned the whole house, laundry is going and so is the dishwasher. Alvin and the chipmunks are playing for the 5 time in 2 days. Its my only break, I hate this movie but it occupys Brendan for about 30 mins. 
I could give a shit less about mothers day, why? cause it doesnt matter, yes im a mother and i appreaciate the thought of making a day for mothers, but why do it when you dont get a break. I wont get any fancy dinner unless i cook, and fuck that were having something easy. No flowers or presents. I dont care. All i want is to hear from my husband, its been 6 days again. I'm worn out,  I have a morbid vivid imagination. I just want to hear his voice. That will make my mothers day worth it, that and a nap. 

So today ill clean the house 48 more times, and fight with brendan to go to bed before midnight and treat myself to going to bed before 11. Hopefully ill sneak in a hot bath sometime tonight. 
 
I want to go to the gym. Too bad its sunday and they are closed. I've become addicted to it. 3 times last week i went ran 3 miles and lifted weights. I barley weigh 110 but i dont really care. I have abs that you could wash cloths on, and it helps me with stress. Plus someone else watchs Brendan for a hour while i sweat my ass off. Which no matter how skinny I am i'm always going to have a ghetto booty. 

This deployment is kicking my ass.  BTW  misspelled a million word and i dont give a shit

Ok so for two nights this week brendan has made himself puke. I'm trying to get him to go to bed by himself, and the only way i can get him to bed is to rock him to sleep and stay in bed with him, well i'm trying to break him of that. Everyone is giving me the advice of let him cry it out, ya that would be a lovely idea if i didnt have the devil child. His idea of cryin it out is 5 hours straight, well he has recently learned a new talent, puking on command. 

He never does this when i'm out of the room, only when i come to check on him and always when i'm holding him. And two nights out of this week he has puked and i'm not talking baby spit up puke i'm talking like something that would come out of a full grown man that has had too much to drink. He's only 11 months for christ sake, he seriously has me rapped around his finger, and unless i want him to drown in his puke and have to clean the vile smelling shit everynight i have to find another way. 

Its 12am and he is still awake. Ok and did i ever mention that i was doing schooling for medical billing and coding? Well i am and im not getting any studying done because i have to fight with him everynight. By the time he goes to sleep, im so tired all i have the energy to do is take a shower and go to bed.  

My son can stay up till 3 am everynight. Right now he's watching Open Season, and dancing and talking to the stupid bear. I have restarted the movie twice already and hes still as interested in it as the first time it was on there. Hes 10 months old and his newest word is "dada" so everything is dada, i'm dada, the dog is dada, the tv is dada, you get the point. But i think it will be hilarious when my husband comes home this summer and Brendan s calling him momma. 

Someone send me super nanny to help me get him on a schedule so i can have some sort of quiet time.  please.